And I heard a voice come from the cross
And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"
"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"
Please, Lord
Heal me from this resurfacing pain that I've been suffering from my whole life. I feel weak and empty inside, but I know your love is pouring into the depths of my heart and you're constantly letting me know that you love me and care when my heart is aching. Heavenly Father, please help me through this agonizing obstacle that I must overcome again and again. I need You. I know that You will never let me wilt and fade away. You've defeated and conquered the grave and the enemy, and I trust that this pain I go through will strengthen my faith and help me grow into the person that you've planned for me to be. But please, remain by my side and hear my cries God. When I'm drowning, pull me out of the dark abyss and when I'm falling behind, hold my hand and continue to help me. It's so hard to say all this in prayer, and to faithfully live out constantly in fear of these throbbing stings. I pray in Your Son's precious name, Amen.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
You are autumn
and even when the trees have just surrendered
to the harvest time
forfeiting their leaves in late September
sending us inside
still i notice You when change begins
and i've embraced for colder winds
i will offer thanks for what has been and what's the come
You are autumn
nichole nordeman
autumn, fall, is my favorite season. the weather is cool and crisp, perfect. the beauty we get to experience with the sight of crimsoned leaves and clear colors is really breathtaking. there's so much warmth and love that ties in with autumn. not to mention, apple cider and pumpkin pie.
and for me, with the change of the leaves, there's always a change in my heart; a time for new friendships and new realizations in my walk with God.
God has really provided me affluently these past few weeks. and through the season's change of fall foliage and light sunshine, God has really transformed my heart. He's been breaking the hard bitter pieces, while molding and creating a pure loving mind.
this past month alone, i've gone through emotions and obstacles i've never gone through before in my whole entire life. but God has really been present, with such a tranquil spirit.
i've felt humbled just by His grace and His creations around me these past few days, and i can't wait to see what's in store for me this year.
to the harvest time
forfeiting their leaves in late September
sending us inside
still i notice You when change begins
and i've embraced for colder winds
i will offer thanks for what has been and what's the come
You are autumn
nichole nordeman
autumn, fall, is my favorite season. the weather is cool and crisp, perfect. the beauty we get to experience with the sight of crimsoned leaves and clear colors is really breathtaking. there's so much warmth and love that ties in with autumn. not to mention, apple cider and pumpkin pie.
and for me, with the change of the leaves, there's always a change in my heart; a time for new friendships and new realizations in my walk with God.
God has really provided me affluently these past few weeks. and through the season's change of fall foliage and light sunshine, God has really transformed my heart. He's been breaking the hard bitter pieces, while molding and creating a pure loving mind.
this past month alone, i've gone through emotions and obstacles i've never gone through before in my whole entire life. but God has really been present, with such a tranquil spirit.
i've felt humbled just by His grace and His creations around me these past few days, and i can't wait to see what's in store for me this year.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
raindrops are fallin' on my head
After checking out at walmart to buy my 'back to school' necessities, i looked outside and it was pouring. Pouring as in, the raindrops looked like they would damage the skin. I looked at three teenage girls soaked from head to toe, actually dripping. I started to creep away from the automatic door and readjust my belongings so that it wouldn't get ruined.
I never run out in the rain, because one time when my neighbor and I finished karate practice (we were ten), we were trying to run into her house during a huge rain storm. I was okay, but when my friend entered the garage, she slipped and slid her foot right into her 4x4's muffler.
So running is a no-no.
So I tried to map out my light jogging route to my car. I speed walked/jogged and it hurt. after getting in the car, I looked at myself and it really looked like I jumped into the pool with my clothes on. And literally, 10 SECONDS after I got in the car, the rain became less and stopped. I laughed out loud! If I just waited LESS than a minute, I wouldn't have had to be uncomfortably soaked in rain water.
But quite honestly, I was happy and I think I really liked the rain today.
At first, right after the rain stopped, I kept thinking 'wow if i just waited one minute, i wouldn't have had to go through that'. But then it made me think of all the obstacles that I've been through in my life.
If I just tried to rewind and redo everything so I wouldn't have any struggles, have my life be more convenient, have my life be a little easier, a little less devestating, when would I learn? And when would I be able to appreciate if life didn't have struggles? I think of the major hardships I've gone through and how they've really shaped and structured who I am today. and with each hardship, I've always experienced, learned, and become stronger and wiser.
So getting caught in that rain was great, and made me really feel God's presence :)
I never run out in the rain, because one time when my neighbor and I finished karate practice (we were ten), we were trying to run into her house during a huge rain storm. I was okay, but when my friend entered the garage, she slipped and slid her foot right into her 4x4's muffler.
So running is a no-no.
So I tried to map out my light jogging route to my car. I speed walked/jogged and it hurt. after getting in the car, I looked at myself and it really looked like I jumped into the pool with my clothes on. And literally, 10 SECONDS after I got in the car, the rain became less and stopped. I laughed out loud! If I just waited LESS than a minute, I wouldn't have had to be uncomfortably soaked in rain water.
But quite honestly, I was happy and I think I really liked the rain today.
At first, right after the rain stopped, I kept thinking 'wow if i just waited one minute, i wouldn't have had to go through that'. But then it made me think of all the obstacles that I've been through in my life.
If I just tried to rewind and redo everything so I wouldn't have any struggles, have my life be more convenient, have my life be a little easier, a little less devestating, when would I learn? And when would I be able to appreciate if life didn't have struggles? I think of the major hardships I've gone through and how they've really shaped and structured who I am today. and with each hardship, I've always experienced, learned, and become stronger and wiser.
So getting caught in that rain was great, and made me really feel God's presence :)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Always check your children's homework.
(Here’s the reply the teacher received the following day)
Dear Mrs. Imerfall,
I wish to clarify that I am not now, nor have I ever been, an exotic dancer.
I work at Home Depot and I told my daughter how hectic it was last week before the blizzard hit. I told her we sold out every single shovel we had, and then I found one more in the back room, and that several people were fighting over who would get it. Her picture doesn’t show me dancing around a pole. It’s supposed to depict me selling the last snow shovel we had at Home Depot.
From now on I will remember to check her homework more thoroughly before she turns it in.
Sincerely,
Mrs. Chester
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Beauty
I've been watching Disney movies and listening to the soundtracks for the past three weeks. My new favorite movie is now officially Beauty and the Beast. My mom told me this was my favorite movie when I was younger, but I guess it got shadowed by the new movies and pixar flicks that started coming out, or I just forgot. I really liked Hercules for a while though. Beauty and the Beast has such a beautiful concept and storyline. I cried wholeheartedly after watching it again (typical). This is one of the Disney movies that really look upon someone's heart and not his or her outter appearance.
I had no idea that the prince's name was Adam? He doesn't seem to look like one and the name doesn't sound as smooth to me as it should. I kept thinking the beast was like 30 years old, He turned 21 at the end of the movie.
My favorite scene is when Beast was pulled up by Belle and put on the ground of the balcony. He was just stabbed by Gaston and even though he's in complete pain, his face lights up and says "You- .. you came back" Someone as beautiful as Belle could go past someone with such hideous features and really love him, even Beast is surprised. And even though my initial reaction was what a beautiful blossoming relationship between man and woman, I definitely could sense God in this movie too.
I think you should rewatch this movie too :D This blog sounds like I'm doing a review of a movie, sorry haha. I just wanted to share my thoughts and I had no other better topic.
Now that I've done my share with watching movies, I'm going to start or finish off the books that I've wanted to read all summer.
I had no idea that the prince's name was Adam? He doesn't seem to look like one and the name doesn't sound as smooth to me as it should. I kept thinking the beast was like 30 years old, He turned 21 at the end of the movie.
My favorite scene is when Beast was pulled up by Belle and put on the ground of the balcony. He was just stabbed by Gaston and even though he's in complete pain, his face lights up and says "You- .. you came back" Someone as beautiful as Belle could go past someone with such hideous features and really love him, even Beast is surprised. And even though my initial reaction was what a beautiful blossoming relationship between man and woman, I definitely could sense God in this movie too.
I think you should rewatch this movie too :D This blog sounds like I'm doing a review of a movie, sorry haha. I just wanted to share my thoughts and I had no other better topic.
Now that I've done my share with watching movies, I'm going to start or finish off the books that I've wanted to read all summer.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Expertise in: being a Fattie and Cars
So today was the first time I felt like I was on the verge of a heart attack because of all the crap that i've eaten within the past weekend. Hot pot, super88 indian food, nutterbutters, Chinese food, bulgogi and bibimbap (that Steve and I made!), ice cream, etc. If I went on the scale right now, I think that's what it would say. I can just feel my arteries clogged with cholesterol.
I'm kindof concerned about my heart and my body, not that I wasn't before, but more conscious about heart conditions and being a pumping-iron grammie when I'm older. :D
(I wrote that Sunday)
Sarah, I hope you're reading this.
When Sarah and I were two hott freshmen mamas, we would go to Boyden together to do a little (miniscule) work out, before we beasted at Berkshire and had 3-4 plates of food and dessert. One time on our way back, we saw double doors bust open and two guys in sweats come out with computer monitors (i think), get into a 'red car', and drive off. The alarm was so loud, and sarah and I decided to wait there incase a cop needed identification. (yes, we're rats, but not BBIJ rats) When the cop came over, one of his first questions was 'What kind of car was it?' and we both kindof blanked out. All we could say was some beat up red old car. Definitely not a truck though!
I've been meaning since that day, a year and a half? ago, to do some research on cars and get to learn the car brands incase it ever happens again or there's a hit and run or something. I've been trying to test myself and the only thing I know for sure are BMW's. Hondas and Toyotas most of the time.
Another story:
My mom's side of the family kept telling me 'Please, don't drive this summer!' and saying 'We really care about you and don't want you to get hurt' But then ended up saying that they cancelled my insurance and 'wouldn't' let me drive no mo. But I need a car for my internship job, so I asked my dad if I could get insurance with him. $200. Then my aunt found out that I got insurance, and confessed to me that I have insurance! She told me that they didn't want me to drive because some guy, supposedly psychic, in a Buddhist temple said I shouldn't drive. He also said my engaged cousin can't get furniture and that I am going to go to medical school. Interesting.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Andy is ballin'.
I'm awake now! After I passed out at Dwight for a few hours or so.
Today, Andifer Lokmonster bought us over one hundred dollars worth of wings. bones, boneless, ribs, french fries, onion rings, and drinks. Finger-lickin' good. Thank you Andy!! This is the last time I ever want to binge unhealthily like that ever again. (That's a lie but I'm pretending to be a food conscious person)
Today was so fun. I wish college was like this all the time with no work and no stress. Just lots of time to play, get fat, and hang out with friends.
Today, Andifer Lokmonster bought us over one hundred dollars worth of wings. bones, boneless, ribs, french fries, onion rings, and drinks. Finger-lickin' good. Thank you Andy!! This is the last time I ever want to binge unhealthily like that ever again. (That's a lie but I'm pretending to be a food conscious person)
Today was so fun. I wish college was like this all the time with no work and no stress. Just lots of time to play, get fat, and hang out with friends.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Obsessed with Puzzles
so steve bought me a 1,000 piece mosaic charlie brown and snoopy puzzle set that i've wanted for a while, and today is DAY ONE of starting it. i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED
you know what's weird, birthdays. a yearly marker that indicates a change in the new year, a change in yourself, and a change in your age. i never thought i'd turn 20, and i kindof wished i was still 19 :( i don't think i like getting older, not just because i'm getting older, but because my dad's getting older and everyone around me. but if we regard all that negativity, i've had a great week and weekend so far. donna and suzy came to umass which equals tons of laughter and fun. and steve took me to minado's for the first time. it wasn't AWESOME but they had my favorite, spider rolls :D and he bought me a fruit cake, a delicious fluffy cake with sliced fruit in the center and on top. sosoosososos much good, i never want a regular cake ever again! :) now i'm going to eat with my dad. i think i've gained 10 pounds within the past three days, spectacular!
you know what's weird, birthdays. a yearly marker that indicates a change in the new year, a change in yourself, and a change in your age. i never thought i'd turn 20, and i kindof wished i was still 19 :( i don't think i like getting older, not just because i'm getting older, but because my dad's getting older and everyone around me. but if we regard all that negativity, i've had a great week and weekend so far. donna and suzy came to umass which equals tons of laughter and fun. and steve took me to minado's for the first time. it wasn't AWESOME but they had my favorite, spider rolls :D and he bought me a fruit cake, a delicious fluffy cake with sliced fruit in the center and on top. sosoosososos much good, i never want a regular cake ever again! :) now i'm going to eat with my dad. i think i've gained 10 pounds within the past three days, spectacular!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Promise Fulfilled!
I worked in Salad Room, the room in the corner of the Blue Wall kitchen. The only not scorching hot room (minus the walk-in refridgerators) in the back where sandwiches for grab-n-go are carefully pre-made. Those two hours I worked were the two best hours I've had working at Blue Wall for a long time. I got to make all the deli sandwiches, wrap them tightly, and print and seal the price sticker on them. My regular job is either making chicken fingers, french fries, mozzerella sticks, and taco shells in the deep fryer, or making burritos when the lines are really long. So a day in the nice cold salad room, listening to nice music, making sandwiches in no rush felt like a breath of fresh air. It was glorious. I wan't to work there all the time.
I also got a 100% on one of my papers/projects. I was expecting her to mark up my paper like crazy, and criticize my project with a bunch of notes on the sides. This is crazy. I feel like a little kid who wants to pin this up on the refridgerator door. Actually, I think I might just to make myself feel special. I'm not doing that wonderful in all my other classes, so this boosted up my motivation, to, keep.. leaving projects and papers to the very last minute c:
I also got a 100% on one of my papers/projects. I was expecting her to mark up my paper like crazy, and criticize my project with a bunch of notes on the sides. This is crazy. I feel like a little kid who wants to pin this up on the refridgerator door. Actually, I think I might just to make myself feel special. I'm not doing that wonderful in all my other classes, so this boosted up my motivation, to, keep.. leaving projects and papers to the very last minute c:
Monday, April 13, 2009
Uh Oh!
I always do this. I get to the writing part of the blog and I draw a blank and become tired. I'm signing up for classes tomorrow morning, for my junior year. Since when did I become a junior!
I promise to write more later. HAHA. I'm actually only promising to like, two people. Since I only have so little friends on blogspot c:
I promise to write more later. HAHA. I'm actually only promising to like, two people. Since I only have so little friends on blogspot c:
Monday, March 2, 2009
Speaking too Soon
So in my previous post, I mentioned how Spring weather was being delayed by this 'poop' snow weather,
BUT REALLY forcereal I take that back! Snow is marvelous, for snow days.
But besides that, ALL glory to God for this weekend of praise and worship, for prayer time tonight slash this morning, the beauty of the Cross, and Your love.
fresh 2009 out. (LOL)
BUT REALLY forcereal I take that back! Snow is marvelous, for snow days.
But besides that, ALL glory to God for this weekend of praise and worship, for prayer time tonight slash this morning, the beauty of the Cross, and Your love.
fresh 2009 out. (LOL)
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Someone is in love with me.
I set this blog up with a pretty embarassing username, so I've kept it private and in hiding. But today, I found out how to change it! So now I can blog all I want because I finished the last pages of my journal. I still want a new journal though. I have two, but one is for sermons and message reflections, and the other is for prayers. I need one more for personal thoughts.
jeff: vanna go to basketball game tongiht
umass bass
jeff: vanna go to basketball game tongiht
umass bass
me: maybe? what time
jeff: 7 post meridiem
it's blackout night so first 1000 gets free tshirts
Sent at 4:13 PM on Wednesday
me: whos going
jeff: me
that's it for now
me: NO WAY
jeff: i asked steve
me: NO WAY
jeff: HUH?
LOL
LOLLLLLLL
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
IM NOT ASKING YOU OUT ON A DATE
HAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
me: hhaahahahahahahaha
jeff: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
jeff: i literally
laughed out loud
me: HAHAHAHAHA i did too
jeff: i am dying right now
omgosh
me: WOW JEFF a little forward huh?
jeff: LOL
OMGOSH
you didnt let me finish
WAY TO ASSUME
THAT THE WHOLE WORLD IS IN LOVE WITH YOU
me: HAHAHAHAHA YOU STOPPED TYPING!!!
jeff: WHAT AN EGOMANIAC!!!!!!!!!!!
me: HAHAHAHAHAHA
jeff: wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
THIS IS THE TRUE SIDE OF YOU JESSICA
hey who's going to retreat? ummm me.......
jeff: OMGOSH HE'S ASKING ME OUT
me: hahahahahaha
jeff: NOOOOOOOOOOO WAY
NOOOOOO WAY
I told Jeff he would be in my first real blog. He crossed the line. and asked me out. TSK TSK.
So I'm pretty excited because I'm in this internship called 'Greening of the Valley'. An exhibition and synposium dedicated to architecture focused around the green environment and movement. I get to design the banner/logo/icon for this exhibition and I'm hoping it comes out well. I'll show you guys (Actually, I have no friends on blogspot ..tear) the design when I'm done!
I'm going to Antonio's with Steve now to eat and get fat. It's snowing. After a week of basically Spring weather, we go back to this poop. I guess that's a positive to living in New England. You appreciate all the seasons, because you complain so much about the one you're in :)
I told Jeff he would be in my first real blog. He crossed the line. and asked me out. TSK TSK.
So I'm pretty excited because I'm in this internship called 'Greening of the Valley'. An exhibition and synposium dedicated to architecture focused around the green environment and movement. I get to design the banner/logo/icon for this exhibition and I'm hoping it comes out well. I'll show you guys (Actually, I have no friends on blogspot ..tear) the design when I'm done!
I'm going to Antonio's with Steve now to eat and get fat. It's snowing. After a week of basically Spring weather, we go back to this poop. I guess that's a positive to living in New England. You appreciate all the seasons, because you complain so much about the one you're in :)
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